I’m so tired of being tired.

Depression is a fuck. It’s absolutely exhausting being so hallow. At least for me it is. I know some people who speed right up when they get depressed. I’ve always been the opposite. My depression looks like the girl who can’t get out of bed for any reason (aside from obligations like work/money), who cries…

Finally a breakthrough!

Recently I posted about my setback with my depersonalization disorder. I am happy to report that since then I’ve made tremendous progress. One of my symptoms that I dealt with was my sense of touch. I wasn’t connected mind to body like most people are. The touch of my own hands on my leg, or my own hands together…

EMDR; First session. My experience/reaction to EMDR Therapy.

EMDR therapy a.k.a. Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing Therapy is something most commonly used to treat trauma. This is what I was told when I was sitting in the therapist’s office that they stuck me with because my original therapist was unavailable (and soon after left for good). This was about a month and a half…

One step forward, two steps back.

“The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.” Thomas Paine  When living with a chronic disorder that disconnects you from reality and makes you feel forever as if you’re in the wrong body…you take what wins you can get. You take the wins and you embrace them and grovel in them and soak up…

It’s important to appreciate your friends.

The best friends I’ve ever had live in Australia. I live in New York in the States. That’s why it’s so INCREDIBLY amazing when I get surprises from them. That is also why I felt it necessary to create a Blog post just acknowledging my friend Jess and how wonderful she is. I just did…

Everyone needs a Slinger.

A true friend is one who thinks you are a good egg  even if you are half-cracked. ~Author unknown Slinger is a ridiculous nickname to compliment mine; Bean. A ridiculous nickname for a ridiculous woman who I love dearly and call my best friend. In my previous post about my other best friend, I discussed my view…

My best friend is my reason.

“True love is finding your soul mate in your best friend.” —Faye Hall For some reason many associate the term soul mate with one person forever and always. When talking about a soul mate, some act as though there is only one person in the entire world who is fit for them and they’re meant to be…

Finally a win.

They say to celebrate the small victories, as they are still victories. So that’s precisely what this blog post is doing. For the first time since the onset of my disorder in July of last year, I’ve experienced a small win. As mentioned in a previous post- I meditate. It was suggested I try meditation…

My illness is not a joke. An unorganized rant.

I find it absolutely mind-blowing (somehow) that it’s 2016 and there are people who still think it’s OKAY to joke about someone’s mental illness. I don’t care if you too suffer. I don’t care if you “understand”. I don’t care if you studied it. I don’t care if you’re Freud himself reincarnated. There is NO…