Where have I been?

Two days shy of four months without a single blog post. I started this blog to use as a sort of journal, or release. I started this blog to talk openly about my mental health and as a form of therapy. I started this blog for the same reason I started the many before this…

I am a YEStrovert- starting a new journey inspired by Shonda Rhimes.

That’s right. I am a YEStrovert. Not just an introvert and not an extrovert. I recently read Shonda Rhimes’ book “Year of Yes” and it changed my entire life. [If you don’t know who she is- she created shows like Grey’s Anatomy and Scandal and is just one of the most successful women in Hollywood.]…

This mental health day- read this article.

While the trees are lovely and the air feels nice against our faces, dry from the tears that have fallen from our depression – it’s not a miracle cure. via Sorry, but battling mental illness isn’t as easy as ‘taking a walk’ — THE DISCLOSED

I’m so tired of being tired.

Depression is a fuck. It’s absolutely exhausting being so hallow. At least for me it is. I know some people who speed right up when they get depressed. I’ve always been the opposite. My depression looks like the girl who can’t get out of bed for any reason (aside from obligations like work/money), who cries…

Finally a breakthrough!

Recently I posted about my setback with my depersonalization disorder. I am happy to report that since then I’ve made tremendous progress. One of my symptoms that I dealt with was my sense of touch. I wasn’t connected mind to body like most people are. The touch of my own hands on my leg, or my own hands together…

EMDR; First session. My experience/reaction to EMDR Therapy.

EMDR therapy a.k.a. Eye Movement Desensitization Reprocessing Therapy is something most commonly used to treat trauma. This is what I was told when I was sitting in the therapist’s office that they stuck me with because my original therapist was unavailable (and soon after left for good). This was about a month and a half…

One step forward, two steps back.

“The harder the conflict, the more glorious the triumph.” Thomas Paine  When living with a chronic disorder that disconnects you from reality and makes you feel forever as if you’re in the wrong body…you take what wins you can get. You take the wins and you embrace them and grovel in them and soak up…

Finally a win.

They say to celebrate the small victories, as they are still victories. So that’s precisely what this blog post is doing. For the first time since the onset of my disorder in July of last year, I’ve experienced a small win. As mentioned in a previous post- I meditate. It was suggested I try meditation…